I just need to vent. I feel lost. Ever since I've moved to Green Bay I feel completely lost. My life has had no real purpose. When I was in Madison I had regular and consistent interaction with friends; I had school; I had numerous jobs; I had neighbors who I frequently interacted with. Ya, I love the city of Green Bay more, and I have some family and friends here. But that is where it all ends. I have "no" job yet. No means of income to even go out to eat or to a movie with friends. Or no income to drive and roadtrip to see other friends. No income to get me out of the house. With the exception of exercise and essential errands, I rarely get out of the house. Studying keeps me locked in social isolation. My purpose of life in Madison was nursing, and now I don't even have that due to a dumb standardized test. I exhaust my brain to the point of exploding and yet feel like I'm running on a treadmill getting nowhere. Any forms of self improvement I attempt are a monster failure (with the exception of spiritual awesomeness). It feels like the world moves around me and I'm just sitting still.
Hey you, I complain about stupid boy drama to you all the freaking time. Please know that it's a two-way street and you're welcome (and encouraged) to vent to me about anything.
ReplyDeleteAs far as Geebs is concerned, don't worry, you'll get there. Even though it's home, it's new again and it comes with an adjustment period. Madison wasn't all sunshine and roses right away. Sometimes I feel like I'm still in my transition period here in IA, and it's been over a year.
And just be patient. You're going to pass your test, be a kick-ass nurse, and be wealthier than I ever will be ;) The waiting sucks, but you have to know that you'll be there soon.
baby girrrl, i'll just hafta come visit you! keep that chin up, lady.
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